Another a-ha Moment

I know my last few posts are beginning to make this blog sound like one long Oprah moment, but for the last few months I have been having these deep and somewhat meaningful conversations with myself and I had an epiphany that I just had to share. I have been so honest about my life on this blog - I figure that if you are taking the time to read it I might as well be honest.

As you know I have been doing an internship at a TV company. It has been a huge learning experience - invaluable at so many levels. It has forced me to do some introspection. A few years ago I made the decision to face many fears that had been holding me and my career back and I yielded many positive results as a result. What I have learnt the past few weeks is that there is a fine line between facing your fears and trying to be someone who you are not.

Much success has come into my life from feeling the fear and doing it anyway. New fears and insecurities have crept in by thinking that I have to change myself in order to be successful. We live in such a self-improvement crazy world, that we are so thrown into thinking that we must constantly change ourselves, as oppose to merely just having the courage to fearlessly be ourselves.

Yes, I have learnt a lot about TV and the internship has helped me decide where I want to be career-wise, but the ultimate lesson has been that my success will lie in just simply having the courage to be myself. It's a huge task for anyone, don't get me wrong, but it's much easier than trying to be someone else and failing. Commanding attention is always better than demanding it.

Song of the moment: I know, the R'nB/ Soul gods must be angry with me right now. I am listening to the Ting Tings hit single 'That's Not My Name'. It's really fun and catchy. I have also been getting into a certain Jessica Simpson's new single 'Remember That' - lyrically it tackles abusive relationships. It's awesome, I have already made a few of my friends listen to it. It is the second single off her new venture into country music with the album 'Do You Know', which hit US stores yesterday.